Final Visit

My Dad with a big smile.

Hi Folks,

A few weeks before Dad died, Larry and I visited him at the Assisted Living facility. He was in the late stages of Alzheimer's and I was in the habit of jotting down things he said, sometimes because they were lovely and sometimes because I wanted to try to make sense of them later. Today I looked back at the notes from our last visit and "found" a poem. Here 'tis!


Final Visit

Dad hands me a warm rose petal,

brown, around the edges,

“Huh. Soft. Feel that.”

A withered woman asks,

“Can you open the door for me?”

But the aide says.

“No.

She’s not allowed out.”

I’ll take him out

through a different

door.

He stops in the maple shade,

“Trees, to me, are attractive.”

“Lately, I’ve been taking

photos of people.

I’ll photo them

down

to nothing.”

Almost Spring.

Sun on his temple.

“My end is—

I’m carrying it, I think.

I’ll unload,

put something together,

and close up.”

Amanda Barusch

Amanda Barusch has worked as a janitor, exotic dancer, editor, and college professor. She lives in the American West, where she spends as much time as possible on dirt paths. She has an abiding disdain for boundaries and adores ambiguity. Amanda has published eight books of non-fiction, a few poems, and a growing number of short stories. Aging Angry is her first work of creative non-fiction. She uses magical realism to explore deep truths of the human experience in this rapidly changing world.

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